寄托 许美静

词／许美静.陈佳明 曲／陈佳明
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别问我为什么松开你的手
这一切都应该告个段落
纠缠了那么久
尽管你付出得再多
我还是有保留
也许爱上我根本就是个错
我是一个不好的寄托
我不能够带给你什么
在爱情的世界里
我只会要求的更多
我太想把你占为己有
决不会为你放弃自我
有点爱你不允许我这么做
忘了我让我走得洒脱
不想你的青春白白的蹉跎
不想看见你把珍藏的梦胡乱的挥霍
只因为你拒绝不了爱情的诱惑
所以你才会在我怀里躲

just overheard this on the radio on my trip to Singapore Association for the Deaf (SAD) premises. yup, i really liked this song when i was in sec sch. (i think aida will raise eyebrows and make eeeeewwww noises now *grins*)

anyway, i volunteered to be a group leader for SAD's Spontaneous Light-point, which will be held for the first time on National Day. so, i am sorta part of a legacy!

the volunteers there seemed to be a close-knit, tight group. as i watched them laughing and gesturing in swift, incomprehensible-to-the-uninitated-me moves, i felt sad and lonely and wondered if i were ever going to break into that group some day.

why the hell do i willingly put myself through such shitty isolation? I asked. what's my motivation for becoming a volunteer anyway?

but then again, i really do want to practise my sign language skills and get inducted (somewhat) into the deaf community

so hopefully, i start to get to know the people soon?

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we played Charades since this would be an ice-breaker game used during the Light-point. the instruction that the players had to communicate to the audience "without sign lang but acting" struck me quite forcibly as a trivial example of how the hearing-impaired perceive their world

learnt line-dancing (!) to the tune of We Will Get There.

must practise how to sign our National Pledge. most volunteers already know how to do likewise!