First day of school (tues)

happened to come across yuan peng and we took the train home together. i'm definitely not as nice as before because i looked at the sign as the train was pulling to a stop and groaned, "oh no, only Somerest?!"

it didn't matter whether i was in the mood or not. i just didn't want to make small talk. i pined for "The Movie Lover's Guide to Watching Films" and wondered wistfully about the glorious time i would have spent reading it on the train if i hadn't met him

actually, yuan peng and i have a lot in common, since we are both teachers-to-be and are acquainted with the same group of people. plus, he is a pretty good conversationalist as he introduces new topics into the conversation ever so often and helps to keep it smooth going. and he's a really nice guy (this is not added as an afterthought!)

but i don't feel "clicked" with yuan peng. and i know i would have reacted with far more warmth and enthusiasm if one of my "hokkien beng" army mates had called me up then. the ironical thing is, of course, this army mate and I will definitely have less in common, except for the fact that we spent some time together in a god-forsaken army camp an era ago

i never cease to be amused by the way how we feel we are friends with some people, and not others. though as i grow increasingly unapologetic about the person i am (a nicer way of saying that i am an arrogant, self-righteous, chest-pumping fellow?), I don't feel the desire to be "Mr Nice Guy" as acutely as when i was a teenager/younger adult

i don't know if i like this change in me? i like to do a fair bit of introspection these days but i dread thinking about the answers. so ta-ta!:P