this week crawls slowly

went to subordinate court to attend the court hearing of this serviceman who's being charged with drug trafficking. watched the anxious faces of his parents and felt sorry for them for having to withstand such emotional trauma. kinda wondered about the kind of son i have been to my lao pa lao ma and felt a never-before-considered need to do good so that they would be proud of me

raised my eyebrows when the Your Honour turned out to be a female. and when the accused turned out to be this guy that i had earlier assumed to be the elder brother of the serviceman since i was expecting the accused to appear at court, handcuffed and escorted by burly policemen. guess this court hearing shattered my narrow perceptions of the prototypical court hearing as gleaned from TV serials. hee

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am not flying under the radar as well as i would hope. after i revealed that i'm an Eng Lang graduate, i was kena arrowed to do a write-up on Motivation of Junior Armour Specialists for my RSM (friendly disposition as recounted in an earlier post). i think he was glad to be relieved of this tortuous task and trusted my perceived abilties enough not to vet my work. still, he recommended me to SSG Eric, who entasked me to do his powerpoint presentation (on the same topic, btw)

so, without meaning to, i am slowly carving out a reputation as the ang mo very powderful one.
kinda flattering, yes but embarrassing

actually, if truth be told, i quite relish being asked to do others' write-ups. sounds masochistic but i like the chance to think and to type out neatly-compartmentalized thoughts on the screen, creating something new from scratch. i rather do this than endure through brainless data checking, which i arrogantly dismiss as a waste of time, life and my talents. hee. i fantasize myself as putting my rudimentary skills to the test in the "real world" (read: non-school). Even if the military functions on separate principles from the corporate ladder and can be said to be detached from Reality. lastly, for some unknown reason, i love getting out of S1 branch office, even if it's just to slog away in another office. How absurd of me to feel such! But true nonetheless

though i should tread cautiously if incidents of a similar nature occur again, for i think my superiors would take offence if i keep disappearing from the office for hours at end and not contribute to the productivity of my own branch. the intriguing business of navigating work relationships. ha!

p/s: i'm surprised at how academic some of the responsibilities high-ranking army personnel have to fulfil as part of their job scope

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blog slut~someone who vomits out all he feels on the blank white screen

whatever happened to my old belief of "certain things should be left unsaid". am i moving in a healthy direction?