one of my hons year classmates asked to defer his hons year by one year becos his father's in critical condition now. he will have to start all over again, come July 2004

would you have done the same thing? or chosen to fight on with your studies and end this semester haphazardly?

sobered and saddened by this piece of news. what a way of being brought down to earth from our complacency and be harshly reminded that we aren't in control, are mere puppets in the hands of Someone Larger (God?)

i sang karaoke on thurs and went to help out at metta cattery on fri (deepavali)..probably not the wisest decision, since i'm so far behind in my readings (i'm sick and stressed and guilty over the fact that my classmates have highlighted their readings all over the place but i haven't. and don't intend to do so in the short run)

heck, life's short

just to note these down in case i did badly for my modules at the end of the semester and lost focus on why i have strayed so in the first place

it's so easy to make a difference actually. magic and mango, the two dogs at metta cattery, were besides themselves, jumping up and down restlessly and wagging their tails rigorously when they saw us arriving

we sad self-absorbed singaporeans always lament how life is tough and sucky and how it's difficult to care about anything else beyond our stressful little world

i say: it's easy to distribute your love. and you don't have to be spent after you do it. and in this case, you feel you do get back something from the animals and you're thrilled by this reciprocration of affections

yesterday's survivor episode was phenomenal! finally, something worth gluing my eyes to the tv screen for! really got high as i watched the events unfold

ahhh, my miserable pathetic life, staying at home to watch tv on friday nights instead of going out to paint the streets...but i like!

cowz, 20 days no entry..not like the kaile who always got verbal diarrhoea..hav pple stopped patronising tis weblog?

trying to tink back over the previous mth to see wat significant events hav occurred...
sadly, came up wif nilch...havent been doing much stuff tat deserves to b showcased here

tho' was feeling rather moody one or two wks back becos of tis proj tat i seemed to b perceptually stuck on n could see no breakthro'
couldnt summon the energy to write in tis blog man...n surely writing demands less energy dan other activities, like extreme sports...

breathing more easily now since handed in the assignment for tat proj 2dae

btw, got As for the two assignments i handed in (1, 2, 3, WooooooooW! ha!)
tis tutor actualy said out the top scores to the class (of which mine was included), treating us like pri sch kids, but tats territory dat i'm not going to trample on for now

anyway, tis gal clara gave mi zapped copies of the work of the other top 3 scorers and asked for my paper in exchange
okie, okie, i know it's trivial but seriously speaking, i have nvr come across anything like tis before in my entire academic career
so was fluctuating b/w cowzzzz, these ppl darned kiasu n wa, mi very flattered!

anyway, cant care less abt that assignment (tho' it felt gd tat other pple wanna zap my essay)

i'm reali gratified dat i got an A for my other assignment...i did a critique on hearing-impaired community n its something i felt happy to b doing as part of my coursework...getting A sealed the package man! bonus!

going for carolling sessions organised by SADeaf n Starbucks tis dec..hav gone for two practices liaoz...
mi very proud of myself okie...cos yesterday (monday) got to hand in one assignment n 2dae (tues) got to hand in 2 assignments
but i still adamant tat i attend my sign lang class PLUS carolling practice on sun

patting myself on the back cos i like it that i hav it within me to try to pursue other things in life even tho' the assignments breathing heavily down my neck...

i know, i just said earlier tat i felt so moody dat i couldnt even write in my blog...now, i'm declaring dat i love myself so?!

ai ya, one step at a time?

there seems to be tis perverse pride in me that revels in being bo chup (hence many many readings behind time) when it's so visible tat my hons classmates very the hardworking

confirmed: i'm wannabe beng

last thing i wanna say, i tink my perfectionist streak coming back liao (after 2-3 yrs of smooth sailing in sci fac)
i do care abt my assignments n i wanna complete them to the best of my ability
to be celebrated: tis refound pride in my studies?

til then....

p/s: i'm so swarmed wif work dat i hav been sleeping less dan 8 hrs per nite...n u guys know dat i love sleep...sigh sigh...